HTC touch with tom abang saufi design~

if ada people la kan…whoever they are, can get me one of these, i will be so very thankful. im serious! i want one of those! i dun care which one but coz mata sudah rambang. semua pun sangat cantik.

kalo dapat yang merah atau yang putih berpua kumbu atau hijau itu lagi saya suka.. sebab saya tidak brapa minat kaler kuning.

i beg you people! i want this!

dari dulu saya sangat suka rekaan tom abang saufi. sebab, 1) rekaan dia adalah simbol kekayaan budaya malaysia amnya, dan sarawak khasnya. 2) lawa! 3) dia seketurunan dengan saya eh, saya seketurunan dengan dia. (keturunan abang)

saya sangat2 bangga la dia diberi honor to design these.

qas..tolongla.. im counting on u to find this for me. atau sape2 je la yg terjumpa.

aku akan bagi komisyen punye!

p/s: these are limited edition, jadi tolonglah sangat carikan utk saya!

tetiba teringat kawan-kawan lama dan…zaman aku alim??

VENTEX…. ring a bell?

it’s been a long time we never hv the chance to meet each other and talk about life we’ve had without each other.

like, almost 5 years dah. we missed so much time. sure a lot to talk about if we meet someday.

from left: seng, emi, dayah, tonah, le' n ila. sitting: ME, ina n meen. not in pic: wawa n didi

there were 11 of us. ventex was a group of really nice girls that i somehow included in. im not that nice anymore. or i can say, i was initially not that nice but i became much nicer as i mingled with these nice, adorable girls, but then i just… well, be me.. ventex girls were like the most powerful girls of the school cause most of them held really important positions – head prefect, head librarian, head naqibah, prefects, librarians, naqibahs, COOP executives.

OK. people in nizhny would be so suprised if i tell them beside being COOP executive, i was my school naqibah. yes, back then i was so qualified. becoz of these lovely friends i met. they taught me a lot about things especially religious things.

i actually didn’t want the naqibah post coz i didn’t feel im capable of doing the job, but my dearest ustazah convinced me that i can. cause she believed in me somehow.

well yes, i can say that i was a very good naqibah and the juniors liked me as their naqibah. i was the one who delivered tazkirah and handled usrah, and i know i did a good job. i had full access to warden room at night to search for usable religious materials in the internet. and by the way people, i was the freaking naib ketua for biro usrah dan halaqah – i was incharge in giving other naqibs and naqibahs religious materials for them to pass on and share with other students, manage their daily tazkirah’s schedule, divide usrah’s groups, handled halaqah etc. (wow, as i think about it again, i didn’t know that i was that important! i alone was practically the BPI of PPIM or the PPIM MTs themself! haha..)

then, why am i being what i am now?

seriously, i don’t know the real reason. im just being me, and im the type of girl who cant do things if i dont feel like doing it. unfortunately, at one point i just didn’t feel like doing it anymore. i know that isnt something good. i regretted so much that i cant keep the nice me. but i can’t supress the real me from popping out. so before i fake myself, i just stop being that girl.

when?

at the end of form 5. i was still in ventex; having very sweet friendships with them but i started being friend with some other girls who r a bit different from ventex but more like me. no, it wasn’t that i changed because of them but rather i found myself and what i wanna be when being with them. plus, being in a relationship somehow not so helpful.

if u can understand this, you can really understand why im so envious toward people who is really capable of being so nice and alim. and i hate it if people just faking the alimness so that other people can praise her/him.

being alim – isn’t just appearance. it’s ur heart and soul. it’s ur principle. it’s ur way of life til u die. if u decided to be like that, u have to be really ikhlas and istiqamah and true. and i dont have the istiqamah yet. and im very afraid that i cant be true enough. that’s why i respect whose who is trully alim so very much. i do wish one day i can pull it out and be a better follower. may the light shines on me, amin! i just want to kawin first, lol.

as for the rest of ventex girls, i think (and wish) they’re still who they are back then. if they changed, i hope that it’s a good one. i love u guys. and i miss u helll a lot!!

***related post from my blog: meraba-raba lelaki semasa cuaca sejuk

masalah negara kita.

aku tak tau kenapa aku nak cakap pasal ini. tapi tadi aku baca satu blog pasal kecacatan politik kat negara kita sekarang. aku suka la kata-kata yang dia tulis sebab walaupun macam sempoi je, memang ada betolnya.

it’s amazing how reading other people’s blogs can make u think really deeply about whatever matters in life.

eh, by the way, blog itu bukanlah sebuah blog politik. dia cuma bercakap pasal politik di salah satu postnya. blog dia pun pasal hidup hari-hari juga.

dia buat aku fikir betapa pincangnya politik di negara kita sekarang. mujur aku duduk di luar malaysia, kalau tidak pening jugak kepala otak nak baca, tengok tv atau dengar pasal masalah ni hari-hari. aku bukanlah orang yang suka cakap pasal politik. tapi aku ambik tau juga. terutama sekali kerajaan kita yang huru-hara.

dan tiba-tiba aku teringat satu movie bodoh yang aku tengok tak lama dulu: harold and kumar escape from guantanamo bay. ya, movie itu bodoh, tapi ada satu part yang ada maksud yang mendalam, kalau kita rajin fikir-fikir la.

part yang masa diorang cakap dengan encik president (bush, kononnya) yang tengah mengalami euphoria kerana menghisap weed:

**harold: just to be honest, after all the shit that we’ve been through, i don’t know if i can trust the goverment anymore.
**president: trust the goverment? hey, i’m in the goverment and i don’t even trust it. you don’t have to believe in the goverment to be a good american, you just have to believe in your COUNTRY.

itu betul. orang yang hisap weed akan cakap benda betul. walaupun dia sendiripun tak betol.

kesimpulannya, untuk jadi seorang rakyat malaysia yang baik, tidak semestinya kena ikut cakap kerajaan. terutama sekali kerajaan yang macam sekarang.

percayalah kepada negara kita, MALAYSIA!

budak medic.. skema ke tak?

dulu masa summer holiday, aku, dyana dan emaknya pegi ke kedai kamal. nak beli buku medik la. bila sampai kat kedai tu, ramai jugak la bakal-bakal doc yang merebut-rebut nak beli buku medik kat situ. biasa la, kat situ buku medik murah. dalam banyak-banyak manusia kat situ, adalah sekumpulan pelajar perubatan baru dari satu univ tempatan ditemani oleh senior-senior mereka hendak membeli buku anatomy dsb.

aku dengan sifat semulajadi aku terus menganalisa pakaian mereka; suma pakai baju kurung, kasut hitam macam aku pakai zaman sekolah asrama dulu, paling tak bole blah, diorang ni semua pakai name card univ dikalungkan kat leher besar-besar tulis ‘PRASISWAZAH‘.

aku pandang dyana, yang semestinya dalam otak dia pun fikir benda yang sama dengan apa yang aku fikir. aku fikir, memang la kat mesia dress code itu sangat penting, tapi, takkan la nak pegi kedai pakai name card??

aku perasan mereka pun memandang kami dengan pandangan yang sama macam kami pandang mereka. aku pun menganalisa pakaian aku dan dyana pulak. t-shirt colourful, jeans, handbag pun colourful, kasut tumit tinggi, dan bermekap.

mesti dalam otak diorang ni fikir:

“diorang dua orang ni budak medik ke?? Nape diorang beli buku clinical medicine dan pharmacology?”

diorang ni tak pernah tengok gray’s anatomy atau house ke?

kawan aku, encik ezwan suryakarta menceritakan pengalaman dia dan halim pertama kali lapor diri kat director hospital tempat diorang practical. soalan pertama doctor tu tanya:

“korang ni PUNK ke??“

ezwan dan halim pakai baju t-shirt biasa, berjeans, kasut sneakers dan rambut sedikit pacak-pacak.

haha..blom tengok rambut kekasih aku lagi…kalau dia tengok, mesti dia halau terus..

kat malaysia, dress code dan penampilan kemas (rambut pendek, berkemeja/ baju kurung, kasut hitam) sangat penting. pakai macam tu baru budak medic. its a cliche.

dan kita yang blajar bukan di malaysia fikir, mereka ini sangat skema. dan tak patut langsung pun sebenarnya.

hurmm… budak medic skema ke?

Azam baru lepas abis cycle pharmacology~

semalam hari terakhir cycle pharmacology utk semester ini. walaupun everything about it was juz fine, tapi aku sedar aku tak buat satu benda yang sangat penting bagi seorang pelajar.

iaitu membahagikan masa belajar dengan baik.

cikgu pharmacology nama dia valentina vaselevna dugina. dia sangat sangat sangat baik orangnya. aku sangat suka dia. sebab tu aku suka duduk betul2 kat depan dia. walaupun aku tak prepare pon untuk kelas.

itulah masalahnya. bila cikgu dah sangat baik, jadi aku kurang motivasi untuk study di siang mahupun di malam hari. siang, aku xwat papa…aku blogging atau rehat atau tido. malam, aku baca sikit2 saja…lebey kurang setengah jam seblom aku tido.

maka, sempena cycle baru aku esok, aku pun berazam baru. so, aku buat jadual masa.

6.00am – bangun, solat & bersiap-siap serta bersarapan. pegi kelas.

Abis kelas (12noon) - Rajinkan diri pegi lecture (yg aku sangat jarang/ tak penah pegi)

inilah jadual lecture!

Bila balik (xkira la pukol bape pon) – rehat. bole la berblog dan sebagainya.

5.30pm – masak, makan-makan dan mandi.

9.00pm – STUDY

12am - bole la pegi tido

** jangan tido lambat sebab nanti susah bgn pagi!**

haa.. itu lah dia!

harap-harap aku bole ikut jadual ini. sebab slalunya aku memang jarang nak ikut.

autumn picnic~

5 October 2008

It was a rare dry n sunny autumn day…yes, it was. usually autumn in russia means wet, cold(normally below 10 degree celcius, but it could be below 0 and snowy toward the end), dark, gloomy and rainy, like today. but that day we got the definition of autumn we always see on tv back home; a very bright, sunny and yellow autumn.

juz like wat i always imagine before.

and becoz of the very nice weather, we decided to go picnic at the zoopark.  let’s the pictures tell the story:

eatin' canned strawberry~

eatin' mee goreng.. nyamnyam!

main-main daun maple (ye ke?)

sblom apa2..posing dulu! =)

look at the walking path..so beautiful bcoz we're there. lovin this pix!! XD

don't you juz love the view? so yellow!

cak!cak!

way home. di seberang itu dan jalan lagi, situlah hostel kami...

itu bangunan red brick itu hostel kami!

Happy =)

On 4th October i received a raya postcard~ My friend, zahed lompat-lompat came to my room & handed me the postcard. it was from Perth, Australia. One name. One face. SALWA ADILA! Darling, i’m sooo missing you!

salwa adila aka le'

that day i was very very very very happy!! really! felt like i wanna fly there n hug u hard! *huGs & kiSSes*

Before that, at 2a.m when i was berehat2 from making chocolate cake for hari raya celebration, my best guy friend, Dinnie Fadhli called me! i havent heard from him for ages so i was sooo happy to hear from him. but he didnt sound happy cause back then he had some personal problem. I hope everything is good now.

I cant wait to meet you! I’ll introduce u to my kekasih ok! u’ll do the same ok?  *huGs*

the very touching and romantic words someone ever said concerning me that makes sooo bloody happy and touched today is ‘To remember her is like to see the sun rise.’ makes me almost cry. it’s from my kekasih lama, Rayzond’s blog. the whole blog is very touching, and i really appreciate everything u wrote. I take it as a birthday present from you to me. the sweetest so far. thank you so very much!

and u deserve a hug too. *huG*

makan-makan raya NNSMA

Date: 4 October 2008

Venue: 3rd Hostel

 

kelas med infomatic yg membongokkan aku!!

cess..so disinilah aku…kat kelas med info yg memeningkan otak dan membongokkan aku….

aku memang tidak ada bakat untuk menggunakan segala jenis program yang sewaktu dengan microsoft excel….

kat kelas ini aku guna linux… program dia yg serupa ngn excel name dia Calc.. (ces aku baru taw..)

sebenarnya aku online guna account orang..so sebelum kantoi baik aku postkan ini dan teruskan kerja aku iaitu mencari pearson correlation coeffiecient dengan menggunakan statistical function yg ada dalam linux’s openoffice.org Calc ini..

apa itu? aku pon xtaw… benatang apa kahhh?

tanya apa itu morhphine aku taw kot (sebab tengah cycle pharmacology…)

benda-benda yang kononnya cool aku buat zaman sekolah rendah…padahal lame gler sebenarnya!

ubah-ubah ejaan nama. nape ntah? tapi zaman sekolah rendah slalu la buat… contoh ejaan nama asal dayang haniffa, pastu suka2 hati gi ubah ejaan jadi hanieyffa atau honeyfa atau dayang hannieffa or even die-young honey-fa. pastu tulis nama itu dekat depan buku tulis. kawan baik aku dulu nama dia norhayati kitorg panggil dia netty and dia suka eja nama dia norhayatiey sampai cikgu ingat betul2 nama dia eja mcm tu..

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bila berkawan-kawan satu geng mesti nak bajet mcm girl band yang pemes masa tu..contohnya spice girl, kalau international and yang dalam mesia, elite. aku ingat dulu kitorg 5 berkawan..so elok-elok je nak samakan dengan band tu…aku ingat aku dapat gelaran sporty spice aka mel.c and shasha elite. aku pon xtau nape diorg samakan dengan sporty spice tu..tapi aku tau diorang bagi shasha elite tu kat aku sebab masa itu hidung aku paling mancung (walaupun alae die agak kembang). haha. aku suke je. bangga plak tu.. poyo je.

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berangan jadi sailormoon. sebab sailormoon dan kawan2 dia pun ada 5 orang…so setiap org kami 5 sekawan ada role masing2… aku dulu jadi sailor jupiter la kononnya.. pastu pegi hafal lagu sailormoon. bila fikir balik aku rasa macam terencat je..haha!

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gaduh-gaduh sesama sendiri sebab nak bajet jadi kimberly the pink power ranger…

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gaduh-gaduh pasal artis-artis dan celebrities ensem… contohnya mcm “aku nak prince william tu..ko xyah la minat dia! carik la orang lain! ko minat la nick BSB tu ke.. leonardo dicaprio ke..” sangat cacat! as if the guys kenal je kau…

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slalu gaduh ngan kawan baik. bila gaduh, nangis2 cakap ngan kawan tu “taknak kawan dah!!” pastu mengadu kat mak pasal benda jahat yang kawan tu buat. dulu aku sedih sebab bila aku mengadu kat mak, mak malas nak layan.. sekarang baru tau, benda2 tu semua bodoh je..kalo aku jadi mak aku pon aku wat bodo je.. coz in the end kan, mesti kawan balik ngan kawan yang kononnya taknak kawan dah tu..

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kalau dapat tahu ada kawan lelaki yang suka ngan seorang kawan perempuan, suka ejek ejek kawan tu sampai kawan pompuan tu nangis2 cakap “aku tak suka dia lah!!”

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tulis kat buku dan alat tulis; SILA JANGAN CURI, KALAU CURI TUHAN MARAH!! atau KALAU CURI BERDOSA!

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aku suka kawan ngan lelaki.. kalau ada seorang kawan lelaki aku suka aku (i.e: have feelings for me), aku secara automatiknya jadi benci dia dan taknak kawan dia dah. dulu aku sedikit tomboy.

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buat patung perempuan berbikini dengan kertas kulit buku, lepas tu design banyak baju untuk attach atas patung kertas tu..